yup i just blogger but so what?and yup i know i say i'll put moju aside but i can't! like how i always tell yeeling,every friday night i'll just be sitting there waiting for mingguan to sms me:hey ppl there will be moju paixi tmr at pas.8.30 don't be late.reply. but yes all the excited waits only for me to realise tt xiangying is over and tt won't happen again.all my futile waits .all i ever wanted was just one more.one more is sufficient one more is all i need.time files past quickly and the 9 months of hardwork is over in just 2 days.why can't we have just one more performance...is it really tt hard??soon the seniors sec 4 ones will leave after qing gong yan for tt's their last cca day and i can't bear for them to leave.seriously i feel closer to them thn i do to the sec 3.they were a joy and always fun to be round with.i'm excited bout qing gong yan cause well the whgole cca will be ther.everyone having fun together! reminiscencethe xiangying memories and yet there's this whole part of me deading the arrival of qing gong yan.for the is really the last of tsec 4's willi see at least not untill huan song hui...i want to do something something special for them.make AHSCDS something they'll never forget. soemthing tt will let them leave with both tears and happiness.for they know tt through the hard tough process tt they have endured the past 4 years,it will be oversoon and tt they hav learnt alot and had alot of fun too.though they feel sad,but they shall leave happily knowing they had such wonderful memories shared in this wonderful cca they love.tt is how i wanna leave CDS and i hope tt they can leave tt way too.my gosh why am i talking bout them leaving,i don't want them to leave.all of us got to leave at some point or another its just whether its now or later.i wish tt we won't ever have to but tt is not posible to.CDS a home to me,is filled with fun-loving people who brighten up my day. i love my cca matez
well i'd never thought a common but rare story like this would be happening to me friends around me.well it so happens i do hav.well it is the common case of a ♥ b, b♥ c
well i don't get ppl.if you do like someone why don't you just say it.be truthful to him/her and yourself. well like i said a♥b. b knows but yup doesn like a but ends up ♥ing c.c doesn noe a damn about wads goin on and keeps pressing me to tell her.thn here comes e c's good friend.comes barging in trying to now all.well e found out well guessed it out dunno how darn he did it but yeh he guessed it.well e is protective over c.haha well i think e ♥ c but either doesn know it himself or just doesn wanna admit O.o. how am i involved? well i'm not.i'm z.i love this letter! Z a farily good letter to rep me now. z isn involved in this crazy mix up. however since z is close to a (wxyz...abcd) i know all.and well z's kinda let say outcasted and not related in any matter.z's just a nosey lil letter trying to fit in and know all......
well cause of previos post yup b was involved there too.he kept asking me if i was referring to him.and welll i was and seriously these few days hav been down ones for me.anyways he asked me and well i can't really say it was him or not.its just tt many thngs hav happened in a spilt second and i can't adjust to it.as such everything new seems scary to begin with-i'll just need time to adjust to it.for those who think its them well if you don't feel guilty you won't think that way.and most of the time sorries come and go but not all the time are they able to mend whats left broken.whether it works depend on how deep the cut was. some tt are only surface can be fixed and mended while there are others which are so deep tt they are almost cutting throught the whole darn thing,breaking it in the process.when it goes to the extent of it being broken, no matter how much time and effort you put into patching it, it will never be the same again.some rare but possible are mended and through this whole process of injury and help, a closer bond is formed and both will hav the courage to face stronger and tougher times together.or well help in other when in need and this kind of bond does not flicker away as easily as a candle.tt's how friends are true friends stay lit on like an electronic candle.however mere ones are like a candle dieying away just like tt.both give you warmth and they light up your life but both are not the same.and i do hope i'll meet and have many electronic lights and lesser candles as well it is the 21st century
anyways today shool was well boring except for last period history.it was so damn funny.haha mr yeow mentioned harry potter can't remember why but ya he did thn the class was like ohhh yeeling..thn mr yeow said tt he was playing softball with his students got hit and got a scar.his students asked what happen and he replied it was given to me by he of whom we do not speak.hahaillarious.
ok thn today we did PW.well i love Pw actually cause tt's the time me and lisa put our differences aside and worked together.so yup actually i'm sorry to lisa truthfully i think i was a jerk.and also thto thank her so yes if lisa see's this thank you lisa.well firstly tt you've put up with me.and tt you've always helped me.it was bad of me not to treasure you when we were friends now tt we're not.i keep complaining bout you but i didn see tt i too was in the wrong so i'm sorry.
i can't comprehend the feeling within me...
i don't like it one bit
i don't know what's the feeling really
firstly i'm not emo and i don't like anyone...
its true they know more of each other,
but at least don't keep talking bout the other when one's not around...
it makes me feel outcasted,
they hav known each other from far long ago.
but now one's uncontactable so the other talks to me
when they do get to talk i hav to take it tt i'm not there to relieve myself
arrughh,i somehow feel like a backup
like when ones not around call me to take over
i hate this feeling i really do
i think if its gonna continue tt way i'm not goin to entertain them no more
like a tortise in a shell
i'll withdraw from evryone....
anyways 庆公演 is on 17 april
and i can't wait for it!
whoooooosh~
well on 17 cause we wanna wait til SYF's over too!
haha not sure wad will i be feeling tt day though
for all you noe i may revert back to the high me due to CDS
or i may cry again....cause thn there'll be no more sec 4s
no more xinting,mingguan,yvonne,samuel,karwing,sheena,dingjun etc.
hiaz~buit i'm so excited well
we shall just hav to wait till thn
ok i've been online for quite a long time and i'm bored so i shall blog^^
ok my msgs are all look diff
cause sometime i use opera and sometimes internet
ok well tmr is walkathon in AHS
so yup i'll only need to be in sch just be4 8.45
so yup i get to wake up late
and anyways tmr i'll be goin out with jerry,phish,and cm
lol haha dunno whee we're goin though
eeee desiree cannot be joinin us
cause mrs koh asked her
to stay for auditions...
-.-"
its a founders day and yet she still had cca
wad crap?
its bad enuff we hav to hav a walkathon
and do evrything in chinese
sometimes i wonder why did i enter
anglican high
some of the classmates are crappy
advance learnin gives me stress
but all i can say is i love my cca
and for tt i;m glad i entered anglican
if not i wouldn meet so many great ppl
XDDDDD
我爱中文戏剧学会
ok i super happy cause the internet for my desktop is finally up!
no more laptop
no more hard typing with the flat keys
just my good 'o no DVD player desktop
o.o w8 i want a DVD readable desktop no hav it sucks
anyways today nothin much.bleh
but haha during homeEC we made pasta!
i was ya well i love homeEC but
at home i always cook it so sianz...
anyways today the pasta was pre-prepared by our lovely mrs puah
haha i love the outcome
but hate the green pepper bell like thingy
i dun like the taste
recently my classmates arree crazy bout
this game called hotel626
it sounds scary i think i'll check it out now...
and well ytd i finally logged on to msn
and i realise my alumni added me
he asked for my no. i don giv
he said:i've got sources i will get it
i didn believe and in the end he got it
from someone i didn expect to get from...
cuidan
well maybe it cause alumni mah
oh well haha alumni so old...
ok i'm seriously gonna put behind xiangying rdy
i don want to
but i'm not gonna get any happier broading over it
just the opposite of happy
...sad......er
ok i was telling some of the sec 1s
me:hey you know there will be no more xiangying
them:huh huh???? why???
me:alumni and teacher don want.well not alumni just teacher
them:eh why? we didn get a chance for anything yet
me:yep poor you...poor me...poor us
well yep and yeeling's gonna quit council
she has been wantin to quit it since forever
she hates it in Dcom
she wants out but ms tan just keeps scolding her
and now yeeling is gonna be sacked no shes gonna quit...
ahh the starting of hotel626 is alrdy scary i'm not gonna play anymore
unless there's someone beside me.....
i dun wanna play anymore..
very scary...
wad the hell is wrong wioth those ppl who play such games..
aunty andy?guangjun?carmen?
its so damn frightful la
i screamed!and yet you'll can still come to sch and discuss bout it???!!!
默剧~我的最爱
xiangying is over!!!~~~~
and i am really sad...
i miss moju,i miss my daoju ppl,i miss my yanyuan,i dont want xiangying to end!
starting off with pre-xiangying day, 13 march
we met at general ofice in school at 1.45
thn we set off for e theatre at NAFA
we reached there we were spilt into two rooms
Kuai Le Zhi Meng快乐之梦 and Moju <寻人起事> were in one room
E-M-O 情绪兽 got a dressing room all to themselves
i was really excited for it was the first time entering the theatre
all our months of hardwork can finally be brought up on stage.
the 3 grps were just sitting in the dressing room bored...
thn slowly one by one we moved up to the stage to do tech run
so we did tech run which was really quite boring
thn haha the other 2 wudu: shilei and jeanette
came and told me i was gonna use the smoke machine i was so happy XD
so afterwards after all the tech run completed, we went home at bout 8
i selpt only to wake up at 6am the next day
which was 14 march!!!!!
XIANGYING was here!
moju met at 10 at bugis MRT station.
thn we went to hav lunch at the food court
walau the food court damn scam la very ex le!
Mc's was so much cheaper..
so thn we walked to NAFA
yiliang came late cause he went to get an injection..
he was not feeling well
but he said he was feeling fine and well he looked good too so i didn bother much
actually it was not hard to find you just cross e street and walk....
ok so we were there at like 12pm
so yanyuan started to 化妆 huazhuang
haha i bo liao so i went around taking pics
now i realise most all moju XDDDDDDD
ok thn after we did tech run again
i pity the 3 wudus they were under alot of pressure
lan lao shi was constantly skiping scenes and audrey kept shouting at them to hurry up
they said don need tom test lights and sounds
but tt's the whole point of tech(nical) run
so thn it was moju.
i dunno wad the hell was wang haonan doing la
all my daoju also never move for me
at tt time i was very scared, i was afraid l8r at night moju will make mistakes
or tt haonan never move the daoju for me
i was so terrified i broke down
i cried and cried
the 3 wudus cried with me.i was so afriad at tt time
to me it was like i put in so much work it cant fail because of haonan never move daoju for us
the 3 wudu舞督s were there console me thn the broke too
they were there angry, i could tell
they kept complaining bout the idiot 灯光师 FIONA
i was crying in the dressing room for dunno how long
actually was really quite long DX
thn we had to go up to meet there was a short breifing thn we went to eat dinner
after dinner i got my xiangying tee!!!yay!!
ok after i changed there wasn much time left til start of show so i went up
made sure all my daoju was there.
thn they were saying 5 more min to start i rush out and tripped over KLZM'S fence
and i injured my ankle i dunno if was sprained or wad it was juz damn painful...
i had difficulties walking thn i got scared
shyte xiangying was about to bagin and i injured my leg
i was damn piss with myself
thn joel^2 went down to the dressing room to take salon pass for me from jeffrey
thx joel
it didn heal but was cooling so the pain was there not as much
i thought i could find consolement in my daoju grp members so i told them i injured my leg
thn their ans well yeeling's ans was: i also injured le
omg i was like wad?
yirou asked me if i was ok so i appreciated tt
i just couldn understand yeeling
i told xinting and xinting told audrey to watch out for me
after at 8.10 the show started
why 8.10?
cause we had to wait til dr.boon came first
i still had time to rest for KLZM's and EMO"s show i didn hav to move any props
all i had to do was press the lil red button on the smoke machine XDDD
wad an easy life...
well thn my problem came
moju..
in my current condition i couldn walk much less say run with the daoju in 5s
so my dear cuidan offered to help
OMG i so love her la
so i moved my art stand for preset cause well there was still time for me to walk there and back
so cuidan moved the bush our for me but noone could move the recycle bin so i had to
i grit my teeth and ran out
provoking the injury even more
thn it was the changed scene so the cleared everything and cuidan forgot to bring the bush
it was left on stage
i was so freaked out
thn the next few scenes no prob with the big props but
all the hand props when clearing wasn cleared good
and was left on stage
i freaked out even more
omg my props screwed up
i went down dressing room and cried again
ok well i sound like a crybaby but i'm not
i tried to control my emotions but it was all too much to handle
the seniors were all consoleing me
cuase i cried tto earlier in the day
the were irritated i guess
rongzhe:peggy you continue crying i lock you up in the cupboard
so i cooledd down thinking tt nvm there is still tmr i can do it de
so i went up and thn we had xiemu(thank the audience)
hannah came to look for us and she gave us chocolate
i was so happy
i love hannah~
anyways joel^2(tan) was vey nice throughout the performance
he constantly asked me how i was
audrey was also very nice
thn at bout 11 we cleared and all went home
huijuan(moju's wudu) and yinteng(zhongjian) kept asking me to see a docter but i refused
they kept scolding me...hiaz~
ok 15 march
a day to fix all the wrond i had done
my mama gave me painkillers and the tiger balm patch thingy
we met at 12pm at bugis again even though we only had to meet at 5 as a cca
we went to mos burger this time...
ended up yeeling and daniel also injured their leg so i shared my painkillers
thn walked to NAFA
moju was there at 3
cause apparently xie laoshi wanted to meet up with us
but in the end only came at 4pm
haha we were bored and xinting bought flowers for the teachers
we were bored so everyone was like playing with the flowers and posing haha
even the guys
thn they huazhuang-ed
cuidan kept disturbing audrey asking if she needed to gelher hair
audrey was annoyed XD
we had dinner.i ate only like not even 1/4 thn had to rush le
i was talking to yirou cause i saw tt she was alone
i talked to her bout my feeling this whole time with the daoju ppl
she told me ytd when i told them i injured my leg
yeeling replied yirou stared at her
yeeling just rolled her eyes
i was sad la i don undertsnad why my daoju ppl and melike tt
actually everytime my daoju ppl talk i'm seldom/never invovled
eg.ytd be4 xiangying started yeeling and joel were talking i was just standin there
yeeling said:i wished yirou was here now not fun de
i was hurt deeply..
thereafter the 演员开声-ed
i checked my daoju
audrey and huijuan were like peggy can anot if not i pass your daoju to someone else
i didn want tt so i said ok de
thn my moju dao ju i moved everything
i ran out and placed my bush and came back audrey asked your leg?
i told her i took painkillers
oh well the painkillers don exactly help but it well ok la it helped
but thn when we changed scene the newspapers were left on stage....
the last scene the fench loaf was left on stage
i could believe myself it was the last xiangying and i screwed up again...
i controlled my emotions but when i went down to the dressing room and saw all the moju ppl
i cried again..
i didn want to i just couldn bear it
firstly was because my daoju was wrong again
and i tot the last day of xiangying would be perfect but there was still mistakes
secondly was beacuse i missed moju i don wan xiangying to end
wa this time i really cried alot i just couldn la
i saw cheryl my batch head and i broke
yeeling broke too thn all of a sudden alot of ppl were crying
cheryl broke too thn xiaoxiang
thn jeanette thn even moju ppl
vigi,samuel and well eugene was just foolin around.
the alumni's came down to the dressing room anyways they were very nice
they kept consoleing me thx alumni's!
omg i think i just caused a chain reaction.
i felt real bad.
i cried form straight after moju ended til about only left like 10min of xiaoyou show
which was like bout 30min well about there ++
i felt i du bu qi moju. i couldn face them i missed them alrdy
my zhudaos: xinting mingyuan
yanyuan: eugene vigi samuel qinhui jeffrey daniel clarissa yiliang lydia joel yeo
i tried to cool down by not looking at them and i did
however as i was bout to go in
rongzhe came and disturbed me this made me cry again.
stupid rongzhe
the alumni's were like talking toilet paper and going round giving it to ppl who were crying
samuel cried vigi cried well alot of ppl cried
i went to hug them and told them not to cry
and they were like peggy you're still cryin and yet you tell me not to cry
i hugged samuel and got moju zhuang on my jacket...
the alumni's consoled me well since they were guo lai ren
i don noe their names though..haha
jiaxiang an alumni was very nice he helped alot.
the other alumni they one who recent;y shaved his head alos did thank you you guys
well they were like 17 this year haha
ppl gave me hugs and tried to cool me down
i told huijuan i couldn face moju ppl if not i would cry
thn she was like: moju ppl if you see peggy hurry up shan if not she'll cry again
some ppl said: peggy you did a great job rdy
: daoju is very impt and without your help we wouldn be able to carry on too
: peggy don cry all good things must come to an end don fret over it
i was touched by their words i went up to the staircase early so i wouldn cry
but i still saw them and cried.
yirou shut me up before xie mu and the sec one helped alot too!
xiemu was great and moju gave me flowers i was touched.
chearmin came and she gave me moral support
i love you chearmin.
i cried again so i like cried alot during the whole of xiangying.
cm and kenneth gave me hugs t cheer me up
cm gave me flowers too love her^^
jeffrey was crying alot too
i hugged him too
i hugged all moju ppl except mingyuan daniel and qinhui sigh couldn find them but nvm
we cleared up and went back to sch
i stayed overnight but well we didn sleep
i went to bathe and thn went to community singing
yeeling didn want so i pei her
she said don need la she dao me le
thn joel tan came she all of a sudden high again
we played poker thereafter and the seniors were very angry with fiona
and she skipped one of moju's light cue's stupid her la
and thn my cca kept swearing
they were like fiona you la and mther fiona-er
yup i guess you'll noe wads tt
cuidan pei me the whole night thn we played poker in the pas
well actually wad my cca was doin was illegal camping
cause performing arts cca can't stay overnight
well anyways we played slapjack and many other games tt kaekho taught us
well so sry i don noe how to spell his name.
yup thn at bout 5 xinting mingming(mingyuan) qnhui cam to pas they wanted to slp
cuidan gave qinhui a sleeping bag and said alot of stuff
thn qin hui was :cuidan 你很吵了
haha evryone laughed la so hillarious.
thn slowly one by one evryone on the room sid she was noisy
lol ok i went to the eagles nest were they were doin community singing
dingjun and tt whole batch was fionaing around and it was so noisy i couldn stand it
and i went back to the pas were cuidan and i slpt for 30min
i don understand why so many ppl slept in the eagles nest its so noisy
i think the only smart ppl were
ming ming xinting qinhui eugene jiaxiang shilei huijuan and another person but i don noe who
ok they chased us ourt at 6.45am tired i went back home straight with cuidan
i didn wait for yeeling and joel. why?
well cause i overheard them saying they were goin to hav breakfast
joel asked me if i wanted to join i saw yeeling's disgusted look and declined
i reached home bout 7.30 and slpt all the way til 1.45pm and thn i woke up to blog
haha nx time i shall upload pictures!
yay xiangying you rock
翔鹰已经告一段落了,可是我在process中交了许多好友也有了很多美好的回忆
忘不了忘不了,忘不了你的爱,忘不了你的情
翔鹰2009之寻觅
ok first off i'm like really stressed right now...
but i shall talk quick bout what happen for the past few days!!!
1st guys softball match i went to watch on weds
haha i saw stephen there.eee from orchid park sec
he's a catcher wow.not bad stephen
....3more days to xiangying
2nd sports show thingy it was great and thn we went to buy zhudao:xinting and mingyuan's present!!!haha yay...2more days to xiangying
today got back results didn do too well
hiaz~actaully very bad scored only like 69% overall but its ++
thn straight after we headed for Nanyang Academy of Fine Arts
very boring sigh whole day was preety rush
now i'm just like damn scared tt i'll screw up tmr!
*fingers crossed*
i really wanna thank those ppl who are coming to support xiangying!!!!
yay i'm sure it will be a show you'll never forget!
anyways need to rush out stuff for cca now...
sigh wad a short post tmr need to be at bugis at 10a.m sian haha
ok today was damn shytty, and anyways jinghui joined the conversation bk!
today was the east zone basketball finals.i so wanted to go watch but NO
OPG said you must go and thn she scold me cause i didn wanna go
and tt so many ppl never go
so she didn come and i got scolded over the phone
anyways i was damn unwilling to go
cause i went for the same session last year
and i wanted to watch the match
so i was so watseing my time...
anyways throughout the whole thngy at CCH main,
i was constantly msgin jermaine asking her what was the score
and haha i'm so happy to say...
anglican high won both matches!
girls and guys!
girls win by 2 points so very tense
i wished i was there
guys won by 9
i wish i was there even more!
ok anyways now i am online discussing the SEL thingy
well with lisa and yiping
and frankly it is goin very well
and i'm havin fun discussin
at least my points are being put across
and it is chosen
yay!
however it ended up like this
lisa:I GOT A IDEA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We can take a video of different people in the interview as a part of our presentation
A smile is what it takes for a bright day says:
As in those who have really dealed with peer Pressure
however i had said this before:we could do like an interview?ya as in some of us could talk about how we feel bout peeer pressure
so thus my idea didn come out of my mouth as planned
but atleast its being used!
and yay i bought more sweets so ya 2B get rdy to eat sweets!
anyways monday there is a softball match
anglican against orchid park
i'm goin to see who wins!
ok well i admit i'm seriously lagg at updating o.o
ok first TUNGSU!!!!!
because of you tr question me on whether i copy yours or you copy mine?
obviously i won't say me
and cause i was so nice i didn say you copy mine either
now our journal have to write 4 pages....
ok well enough for the blaming
ok i don't usually hate ppl to the extent of rolling my eyes whenever i mention her
but this time i really hate #### ####
she is not say bossy
but she really bu shuang me lor
so i bu shuang her
so one day she suddenyl so friendly
so i ok lor play play nice to her
but thn straight away nx day she ignore me dao siao!
reasons why i don't ####:
1. she can talk during class, everyone can talk except me. i talk she goes peggy quiet la you very noisy know? very irritating le
oh so everyone else is an angel except me the devil of the class...
2. we do project,she could hav asked me hows the progress but NOOOO she wait til my other grp member come thn ask tt person
so bai ming don't want talk to me la
3.she forever give me the go away face la
4.i call her tell her something she ignore me.other ppl call her she straight away ans yup and starts laughing...
but because i'm so nice i get somebody else to tell her if not she will tio meh
5.she talks to other nicely thn come to me just chuck evrythin
6.she scolds ppl for doin stuff but when she does the same things its ok,others do also ok
so its damn bias la!
well here are the 6 reasons why i don't like her...
haha well today had cca
they said was full-run so ALL MUST come
so we went
but end up not all actors came so couldn do
so my poor daoju grp ended up doin daoju...
so actually we can don come de lor
they seriously think we so free ah i'm still rushing out stuff here!
thn another thing my recycling bin...
n last last sat, i spent bout 2++ hours trying to paint it nicely
today they came actually we observed tt reclycling bin is white one
so cut out thn paste on a mahjhong paper & cut the majhong paper in the same shape...
i damn heart pain la..
i do for so long yourone word and its gone
i really reeally damn angry! just now they ask me get new daoju xiang for them on way up i started crying la!
you know how long it takes for one to finish a daoju nicely?
and thnn my wudu just said i think it looks ugly if we just stick it on like tt so redo cut the signs out and paste on majhong paper....
so like ya now i'm still very angry.. RRRRRR
ok anyways my dear dear yeeling came over to my new house haaha thn i went over to hers.
we agreed tt i'll be goin over to hers on monday to go through math :)
yup my house isn done yet but progress is alot
today i also introduce seventeen to yeeling and haha one day i'm gonna go shopping with her!
i also brought fox today but in a short while all my fox was gne...so sad but nvm i'm gonna get mroe tmr !^^